Thursday, 13 June 2013

The end

As there are approximately 1.7 school days left in this school year, I have a few thoughts, and have learnt a few things about myself. I will start by saying that in my case, the old dog couldn't quite learn the new tricks. I was able to do what ever was expected of me, I just couldn't find enough in me to care. In the end this result is unfortunate, because I am quite capable of passing grade 12. There is just other ways I would have rather done it. As well as on a different and more appropriate schedule according to myself, which I mean makes sense to me! No matter the topic, this year I could not find the motivation anywhere. Being so close to the end, and yet having no idea where you're going to go after the end is a stressful situation let me tell ya. I feel as if the fact that it was still an in school assignment was the part that made me lack motivation the most. I don't want to learn for anyone else's sake. I don't want people to tell me I have to learn. I understand that at some point, that's what has to happen, but I feel as if i'm already past that point, and I would just like to take it by myself from here. Well from here, that would've been nice months ago.
At the end of this semester, with a different result from what I had formerly hoped for, I am going to conclude that to someone who has all sorts of issues with, and in a school setting, in the end school is school. Self based learning, or not, i'm still doing essentially what i'm being told to do, and that's exactly what a break from would be helpful.


In transactional LA, we spent a large portion of the 4th quarter studying film. I love movies, so this topic was fine by me! We took a deeper look into what makes film. The different camera angles, the lighting, the characters expressions, and even the way the setting makes whoever is watching the film feel. We practiced skills like reviewing film, and writing scripts. As a final project, we made our own short movies in assigned groups. This provided a break from in class activities which was absolutely fantastic. The assigned groups for our film project also allowed/forced the opportunity to work with some new people, and get to know a few classmates a little better just before the end of the school year. The assessment was planned to take a look at our creativity, and mainly on our ability to follow directions and write a proper script, opposed to assessing our ability as actors, and how good our films are. Making a short movie was an adventure. Although resources were quite limited, and the budgets were a little small, it was a worth while project. After our film studies unit, whenever i'm watching something that has been manually filmed, I can't help but pay attention to all the little details and thoughts that went into planning a shot, or scene.